Monday, April 30, 2007

What I have learned about love

What have I learned about love? I learned that a life without love is a life not worth living. For we are not truly alive unless we are able to embrace what we love with all of our hearts, not through the sinful nature of our flesh, for love is not idolatry. Our modern hearts are so wounded that the fragments seem beyond repair. This reaps deep unrest and sorrow in my soul. Mankind reaches to social standards in order to find happiness and fulfillment, but instead, is left empty handed and broken hearted trying to meet man's standard of perfection. I've spent too many years trying to find myself instead of losing myself… nothing healed the pain within, seeking love in all the wrong places. To man I am nothing but a lonely number, but to God I am a precious jewel worth more than the Hope Diamond could ever dream of being. God's love is the only true love, gently mending the pieces of my broken heart back together again. He loved me enough to save me – The Good Sheppard leading me through His gate. My heart is full again, pumping vigorously by the hand of the Holy Spirit, leading me through the trenches to the Promised Land. Why He chose me I'll never know. Oh Blessed Trinity, thank you for setting me free! Now I know intimacy for the first time; I am stripped bare with every flaw for you to see - only you know who I am. Completely vulnerable, you treat me with kindness and gentle love, removing my sins to throw to waste so you and I shall see them no more. All shame and guilt is wiped away, and others eyes don't burn any more – You are all that matters. I draw all of my strength from you. You exposed me and then saved me. The darkness has turned to light. May I be a light of yours now Lord, drawing others closer to your glory, so that they may too know pure love as I do and be set free in your Holy name.

~Kellie